Mother’s Superiority Complex

” Those midwives to history, put on their bloody robes"
― David Bowie-Teenage Wildlife.

“One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we’ve been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We’re no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It’s simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we’ve been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back.”
― Carl Sagan, The Demon-Haunted World: Science as a Candle in the Dark

A fellow artist recently noted , how prescient my prior series must seem, given the times we find ourselves in. Another friend charitably referred to me as a conduit.

Believe me, it gives me little comfort to see the turmoil of my inner landscape, reflected on any real one.  And following that train for a moment, I should perhaps be more than a little unnerved, given that the new series is subtitled “the denouement”.

Except, as someone who see’s themselves as possibly more of an anthropologist than an artist,  I’m no more unique than anyone who views history as just writing on the wall.

For instance, here’s a particularly unpleasant character whose been seeding her way through my sketches for quite a few years now. With her withering stink eye, I suppose she’s come to represent a certain, old, righteous indignation. A glowering factotum, judging disapprovingly at the viewers prying gaze from beneath her cowl, whilst yielding fealty to the most reprehensible of deeds.

There’s a lot of that about lately, given that a whole segment of society clings to the boast that 100,000 deaths would be the results of someone performing a very good job, whilst another sits blissfully deluded by the notion that C-19 is all just a conspiratorial hoax.

We should all be so lucky.

At any rate, I’ve no doubt that heat they feel, isn’t just from feet being held to the fire, but the dial turning all the way up to total hell unleashed on earth.

So whilst we wait for the full toll, I entreat everyone to stay safe, stay home and make a sanctuary of yourself.

Mining Tour

“Are people crazy? People waited all their lives. They waited to live, they waited to die. They waited in line to buy toilet paper.”
Charles Bukowski.

The first proper work from the new studio then, and I’ve taken the literal bull by the horns, or at least the Minotaur.

I’m following a tradition of course that spans from the Chauvet caves, the Canaanite God Moloch,  to the Labyrinth, through the gates of the Seventh circle of the Dantes Inferno, all the way to Picasso easel and beyond,  but the beastly half man/half bull progeny of Pasiphae, threads it’s way through the culture of our collective subconscious, like a primal avatar.

There are moments when I relate to the Bovine headed creature of Crete, locked away in a dark subterranean maze of my own making, especially in the face of such days as these.
It’s not until I leave the studio on occasion and venture down the mountain to the local town that the outside-like Theseus wielding his club-gets in, as it did today, standing in line at the grocery store.

Shelves ransacked of produce and toiletries, lines out the door, as peoples carts brimmed over with canned goods, water jugs, frozen food, pasta-a surreal precursor to some Steven King inspired nightmare.

It’s the lemming fever of hysteria of course, a literal viral panic about a pandemic that has people, literally shitting themselves in their quest to hoard enough soft ply, to wipe every arse from here to Wuhan. When Plato imagined the end of the Republic,  I daresay he didn’t foresee the hoarding of toilet roll as a harbinger to a populace prepping to watch it from their enamel thrones.

Still, it’s a frigid poke in the collective small of ones back, one that reminds us that society is ever fragile, and a single crisis away from teetering into bedlam and chaos. 
A sobering reminder that all it will take, is a spark of righteous entitlement, to ignite the kindling that has been the unraveling landscape of these past four years.

Because bulls fare better in labyrinths than in grocers shops.

Silo

So the year that was January has come and gone then, and whilst the US moved one goosestep closer to what Orwell portended as a vision of the future, here on planet Mercury, we were making a fresh start. Laying down roots. Buying the farm or at least a two up two down.

Folly perhaps, given a time when one should seriously be considering migrating to a cave on Easter island. 

Still, this is me, knuckling down in the new studio space, which I've taken to nicknaming the "Silo", since it's comprised of a couple of old shipping containers, just a stones throw away from where I sleep.

The mornings are bone cold, and I daresay come the summer months, I shall feel like a boiled frog, so whilst there's future plans to refurbish, in it's raw state, it's fitting domain for a series set in Hell.

Bon Vayage.

Art Decade 2009-2019

“I wish I could spend my days, lost in the pursuit of paint, all in the name of a greater journey-THAT greater journey.”
Me-November 18th 2009

(Top) “Legend” (2009)-oil on canvas | 30″ x 40″

A decade closing then. Time to take personal stock. Tally the gains against the losses. Measure the clock, along with the lines on your face, and the marks on the canvas.

I’ve been doing my own introspection of the whole retrospection lately, diving through decades old blog posts, and for all the highs, lows, occasional navel gazing, pretentious waffle and daubed missteps, the one constant ally has been the work. The eradicable drive to continue on the painted quest against sometimes insurmountable odds. At times it’s felt hopeless, like total folly, at others a sanctuary of illumination, but always a restless, fathomless pursuit for meaning in this mad, bad thing called life.

I imagine all this means that for myself, the muse and the rest of you still willing to enjoy what I do, we are stuck with one another until we all fall down, or are blown to smithereens.
Nevertheless, my gratitude is as boundless as the event horizon, for those who’ve stuck with and supported me this far.

Here then, is a piece from each year-souvenirs that mark my greater journey.

Theothanatos | Ghosts | Man/son | Purgatorium | La Bodega | Paradiso’s Fall

Legacy-an Artists General Truth-(2011)–Oil on Canvas | 48″x24″

“Osmosis” (2011)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 24″

“Rise” (2012)-oil on canvas | 30″ x 40″

“What’s Past is Prologue” (2013)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 48″

“This Thing of Darkness, I Acknowledge Mine” (2014)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 48″

“The Devil” (2015)-oil on canvas |36″ x 48″

“Leviathan” (2016)-oil on canvas | 42″ x 80″

“Wrath” (2017)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 48″

“The Voyage of Elen” (2018)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 48″

“Origins of a Black Hole” (2019)-oil on canvas | 36″ x 48″

View from Abridge

“People were already beginning to forget, what horrible suffering the war had brought them. I did not want to cause fear and panic, but to let them know how dreadful war is, and to stimulate peoples powers of resistance”
Otto Dix.

“What’s the bravest thing you ever did?
He spat in the road a bloody phlegm. Getting up this morning, he said.”

Cormac McCarthy, The Road

So details for my part, 2019, the stillborn Paradiso’s fall an abridged version.
Resembles a Lynchian comic strip, or the trimester of  something unspeakable.
A fairly accurate summary of the year then, peering as we are, back into the black abyss of a decade, that began with such promise, but as Chuck Palahnuik once mooted, switched to being a threat.
For myself, that means the future holds no better prospect than the paint that will continue to flow in tandem with the inevitable deluge of blood and tears the coming era will define.

See you all on the other side of the easel then.

Retrofit

“…he wondered if Mozart had any intuition that the future did not exist, that he had already used up his little time. Maybe I have too, Rick thought as he watched the rehearsal move along. This rehearsal will end, the performance will end, the singers will die, eventually the last score of the music will be destroyed in one way or another; finally the name “Mozart” will vanish, the dust will have won.”

Philip K Dick-Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

Here we are then at the cusp of years end, my latest work for some future event, peering over my shoulder.

Caught a rerun of Bladerunner at a little art house cinema recently, which I guess was showing, because the future November 2019 it takes place in, had finally caught up with us.

Watching it now, 37 years on, feels more like opening a time capsule of early 80s milieu.

One retrofitted like it’s Bradbury building, with a heady array of that eras cultural zeitgeist.

Hypnagogic film noir, decaying Rococo decadence, grainy Philip Marlow silhouettes and Erte flourishes, against a sprawling cityscape that looks like Fritz Lang’s Metropolis meets Limehouse, populated by the peacock exotica of the Blitz nightclub. All whilst a small guerrilla band of lethal new wave androids, fronted by the Bowie like Übermensch-Roy Batty, follow a promethium quest to meet their maker.

At the end when Batty recited the beautiful tears in rain monologue that I’ve heard so many times , I could repeat it from memory, I couldn’t help but feel the sting of my own tears. 

Not because I remembered that Rutger Haur had died this year-as sad and untimely unjust as that seems, given the crass grotesque that still sucks air and light from everything.

Nor was it because I felt as stirred again by the message and it’s messenger, despite the words feeling ever more prevalent as they do with aging. 

But that it represented moments lost in time from my nascent years that have long gone, ones that envisaged an monolithic vision of sophisticated cultural and technological culmination, imbued by a literary assemblage of references from Dante to Burroughs, Shelley to the Sex Pistols. A metaphorical aesthetic that was a hallucinatory collage of a future as past, from a period in time when it didn’t seem any future was promised us.

It still isn’t.

Of all the things that 2019 failed to live up to-and I’m thinking of my beloved England’s recent sepukku -I can’t help but feel that one of it’s greatest disappointments, was in no longer realizing the aspirations we held back then.

Nowhere Towns

“It was as though they consciously cast themselves as outsiders. An undermining confederacy within this outwardly god-fearing and respectable house. A commitment to the sadness of being white trash”

-Gordon Burn, Happy Like Murderers

“The human race is unimportant. It is the self that must not be betrayed.”
“I suppose one could say that Hitler didn’t betray his self.”
“You are right. He did not. But millions of Germans did betray their selves. That was the tragedy. Not that one man had the courage to be evil. But that millions had not the courage to be good.”

― John Fowles, The Magus

It’s a detail from the new piece, a pyre of strewn garbage for the emperor of trash I’m painting, and it could be anywhere, from a no place in a nowhere town.

And yet I suppose I’ve been thinking more specifically of the Liverpool of my childhood as I paint it. “Ollers’ we’d call them back then, little stretches of land where grand old tenements had once stood, now earmarked as a dumping ground for all manner of human detritus. A mountain of piss stained mattresses, and rotting putrid meat in Styrofoam cartons. A graveyard for a human staining footprint, but nonetheless our playgrounds as kids.

This was long before trash became a trope of contemporary art, like the time when I went to the MOMA in LA, and saw a binbag mounted on a wall.  There’s a telling chasm right there-the distinction between the perception of the wealthy elites and the indentured poor, like finding the slops of ones childhood broth, re marketed as a menu special in a Michelin star restaurant.

Here of course, in my artistic playground, everything from a discarded Embassy #6 ciggy packet, to a Robinsons Jam box, to a rotten apple has a resonance beyond merely being a glib ornament.

I’ve been reading Happy Like Murders, a book about 25 Cromwell Street, and the horror home of Fred and Rose West, turning each page with stomach churning dread. The picture it paints is of a degenerative world on the edge of Dean Forest in Gloucester ( Dennis Potters former literary stomping ground). It’s an almost Hogarthian world on the fag end of the 60’s and early 70’s, a hopeless parade of toothless yobs, bully boys, headcases, duggies, kiddie fiddlers, hoodlums, slags, chancers and tealeeves. Working class zeroes-all seemingly salt of the Earth types,pub licked by a life of grime from the bowels of the craggy pitts, or having done a stretch at her majesty’s pleasure.

It’s a sad sack world I’m very much familiar with, one where from the cradle to the grave-tomorrow never comes, because it never belonged to you to begin with. 

So I’m familiar when I see it here in the US also, dust clad nowhere towns, with the chewed up forgotten sputum of human chattel, clinging to the ‘olde world’ for succor, stewing in yesteryear’s garbage, embracing what Flaubert once referred to as the ‘true immorality’-wilful ignorance and stupidity.

Because a society starved of morality, becomes a hell breeding monsters, like the slick oil of an eel, sliding through the hollow of an asses skull.